Note: This is a fictional story. Part 1 is based on my real experience

In my rebellious youth, I wilfully plunged into all manner of self-indulgence, to gain frequent ecstatic enjoyment, until the self-indulgence, slowly gained control over me the more I indulged

Although I enjoyed each of the pleasures within my indulgences, the length of time each lasted became shorter and more exhausting to maintain

 All too soon I became a miserable slave without a will of my own being, for now, I was misguided  into increasing darkness to perform whatever my dominating indulgence led me into

While glimpses of pleasure flickered before me, I was unable to reach or hold onto them for long

Part 2 Is totally fictional

Day after day, month after month, year after year I continued helpless and growing weaker as time flew past until one day death overtook my weakened body

With my dying breath, I sighed in relief that my torment was soon to be over

My hope was abruptly shattered when I found myself in Hell!

The darkness was so dense it was petrifying to move even one single step, although I could hear others groaning who seemed to be close though none were visible

Only my thoughts and images filled my mind taunting me with past pleasures, though there was nothing left of me, just an empty shell unable to indulge,

Suddenly a great wave of sorrow and despondency flooded over me and exertion, I desired rest but there was none to be found

I became aware of flames surrounding me although I could not see them but knew them as well as the flames of desire from my self-indulgence days

As the heat from the flames increased, burning into my flesh I felt myself helplessly plunge further downwards knowing there was no escape

With a sudden jolt, I awoke from this nightmare, knowing this was a warning from God to repent

I fell to my knees and pleaded for forgiveness and thanked God for the warning dream

From that day forward I will praise Him with every fibre of my being for His Love His Grace and His patience