Anger the Contagious Fire

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I write this post not to boast, but to expose my weakness and to hopefully help others who may also struggle with the flame of Anger

I have noticed lately that although the amount of patience has increased due to the number of problems that require patience

Someone else’s frustration has led to anger, leapt across even the smallest spark that ignited to become anger the contagious fire, without realising how quickly and easily it spreads

At one time my own vanity sparked anger, in my arrogates I thought my gift would please who I had bought it for, but when it was rejected

My anger was swiftly ignited and I reacted with uncalled-for insults, and justly reprimanded

Which led me to humbly apologise for my outburst of self-righteous behaviour

Since then, several times I have struggled not to allow someone else anger to ignite the consuming fire of anger, instead allow love and patience to snuff out any spark

Moved into Deuteronomy

My Bible reading is admittedly a slow progress.

Nevertheless, it came as a surprise that I had finished Numbers.

Poor Moses had a really difficult time with the children of Israel

Having been unexpectedly chosen by God to lead the children of Israel out of slavery

From the land of Egypt to the promised land God instructed Moses about

After many times Moses requested the Pharaoh to let his people go, finally, the Pharaoh gave in and told Moses to take his people out of his sight

Even after they had all left and headed to the Red Sea, the Pharaoh pursued intent to capture them all to increase their slavery and punishment hardships

The people were full of fear and began to doubt God and distrust Moses as a leader.

This process continued even though Moses always spoke to God on behalf of the children of Israel

Despite their continually being dissatisfied and crumbling, God directed them to the promised land

With reluctance and stubbornness, they finally entered into the promised land

All except Moses who was denied entrance to the much-awaited paradise of milk and honey

While there will be another Moses, there is no shortage of people who have wandered far from God to the extent of denying His very presence

Being boastful and proud, wilfully exulting themselves as little gods, so blinded by their sinful nature they view themselves as good people

This leaves anyone who has been born again, being slowly transformed into a true Christian

Each one of us finds ourselves becoming a Moses-type seeker of the lost and attempting to show them they are sinners in desperate need of forgiveness.

All those lost ignore or ridicule and mock all Christians whenever they try to shine the light and gently guide them back to our loving Saviour

  

When I was a child, I spoke as a child

When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, and I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

But in that process, I turned away from the God of the New Testament Jesus

Even though I had come to know Him through my school days, youth

Who am I that You Lord should choose to suffer and die for such a wrench this sinner who now kneels before You, guilty in so many ways

I, who knew of you from my young childhood days

Yet so easily forgot all I had been taught

You, the good shepherd, lovingly persisted and directed my path to a Christian school

Lovingly guiding my young life through your words

Bringing me closer to learning and getting to know you in all your fullness

Even then, I quickly shrugged off all you had taught me, all too eagerly seeking out many self-centred pleasures that swiftly became addictive

With thoughts and images that consumed every moment, all too soon tormenting my mind throughout the night and gaining strength throughout every day

In my weakness, I fell prey to so many lies from the enemy that mislead me onto other paths on darkness where I lost all sense of direction

Sin in all its fullness offers many seemingly harmless temptations, but all of them will snare you and corrupt your mind, body, and soul as they did mine.

If not for You, my Lord, being willing to forgive me my sins against You and freeing me from all the wicked darkness I had accumulated

Oh! The blessed relief and joy that flooded into my wretched body, I had quite forgotten what joy felt like and the quietness of peace of mind

I will continue to praise You, Lord, with every breath I take for the rest of my days.

For You are worthy of Praise

Strange Story

Note: This is a fictional story. Part 1 is based on my real experience

In my rebellious youth, I wilfully plunged into all manner of self-indulgence, to gain frequent ecstatic enjoyment, until the self-indulgence, slowly gained control over me the more I indulged

Although I enjoyed each of the pleasures within my indulgences, the length of time each lasted became shorter and more exhausting to maintain

 All too soon I became a miserable slave without a will of my own being, for now, I was misguided  into increasing darkness to perform whatever my dominating indulgence led me into

While glimpses of pleasure flickered before me, I was unable to reach or hold onto them for long

Part 2 Is totally fictional

Day after day, month after month, year after year I continued helpless and growing weaker as time flew past until one day death overtook my weakened body

With my dying breath, I sighed in relief that my torment was soon to be over

My hope was abruptly shattered when I found myself in Hell!

The darkness was so dense it was petrifying to move even one single step, although I could hear others groaning who seemed to be close though none were visible

Only my thoughts and images filled my mind taunting me with past pleasures, though there was nothing left of me, just an empty shell unable to indulge,

Suddenly a great wave of sorrow and despondency flooded over me and exertion, I desired rest but there was none to be found

I became aware of flames surrounding me although I could not see them but knew them as well as the flames of desire from my self-indulgence days

As the heat from the flames increased, burning into my flesh I felt myself helplessly plunge further downwards knowing there was no escape

With a sudden jolt, I awoke from this nightmare, knowing this was a warning from God to repent

I fell to my knees and pleaded for forgiveness and thanked God for the warning dream

From that day forward I will praise Him with every fibre of my being for His Love His Grace and His patience

The Gift

Based on a dream

There were two brothers who had great respect for each other

They were issued a challenge by a church elder, to give a special gift to each other, for no real reason

The gift had to be personal and unique and it had to be handcrafted

They both were eager in accepting the challenge and set to the task of think what this gift could be and then creating it

Several days passed and they shut themselves away from each other, which was unusual and very odd for they normally spent much time together

As they enjoyed each other’s company, and the production of this challenge kept them apart

Their home was unusually quiet while they each struggled with what the gift

Until on the same day after much effort, they both had their gift ready to give

The brothers meet in the living room with the gift in their hands, exchanging them both

They proceeded to unwrap their own gift, while the other did the same, so intense was their attention, they hardly looked up to see what the other thought of their gift

Soon both gifts were unwrapped, and both brothers sighed as they each saw the gift looked the same

Each held a plain covered book in their hands, upon opening them, signs of delight and relief spread over their faces

The one gift was full of old photographic memories long forgotten, while the other gift was full of handwritten boyhood memories  

Strange how we both thought to make a book,” said the one brother

“Yes,” said the other brother, but I’m glad we filled them differently, do you like my gift to you he asked?

Oh! Yes”, it was a wonderful idea to sort out all these old photographs, I had quite forgotten all about, thank you for your gift

“Thank you for this wonderfully written book, I shall treasure it and read it often, said the other brother

“As wonderful as both of these gifts are,” said one brother, I missed your company so much while we were busy. Never let us ever do this again, he paused, as the best gift is always being together”

“I agree,” said the other brother, and they hugged each other and laughed at their slight foolishness, thinking a made gift was more important than time spent together

Scrooge Tells His Story

I Ebenezer Scrooge the wretched man of this story and the events that change my life so completely, I freely praise that day and I shall be grateful for the rest of my days

As I now retell my story to my every growing adopted family, it helps to remind me what a truly lost soul I had become

Many years have past since that fateful night when I was visited by those three spirits, foretold by my old dead partner Jacob Marley who appeared in ghostly form, bound by many heavy and sturdy chains

That night I refused to believe that it was he, and dismissed his warning, but even so his words troubled my mind so much that I was unable to sleep

I still shudder even now just thinking about that night of revaluation, when the truth of my past life was revealed to me by all three spirits

Each spirit with a different part of my life to transport me into, with the last spirit of the Christmas yet to come, being the spirit I feared the most

Until that night I had no idea how miserly I had become,and what lonesome and miserable life I had encased myself into, by snubbing even my only living relation, which I came to regret later on

My nephew, the only child of my dear sister who died in his birth, in my selfishness I blame him for her death

My biggest regret of my past was allowing my covetousness of money to hard my heart and replace the love of a fine and dear young lady, who I had vowed to love for eternity, it saddens me that I fail to keep that vow

Enough of my wallowing in self-pity, I rejoice in my new life, this second chance I was given

The joy of a full family life and friendship I now have, could never be replace by any amount of gold or silver

God forbid that I should ever revert to that old mean money grasping miser, I would rather be taken from this life, even as happy as I am than become old self again

The reason behind this addition to this famous story

I may have never been a miser, but a sinner. Yes indeed

A wretched sinner in desperate need of salvation, like Scrooge unaware just how hard hearted towards God I had become

As a forgiven sinner, who through God’s grace is “born again “I would rather be taken from this life, even as happy and at peace as I am now, I would prefer death than ever become that old self again!

The Lost Sheep

The shepherd took great care of his flock of sheep keeping them from harm within the safety of the sturdy pen

The spring lambs now older by several months, still stayed close to their mothers from milk and warmth

All except one slightly older lamb who looked longingly at the greener looking grass outside of the pen, and as he was still young he was small enough to push himself through the gaps in the fencing

Feeling pleased with himself at escaping he scampered off enjoying this new found freedom

Stopping only briefly to much grass, which to his surprise did not taste any better

He moved swiftly onward in his freedom adventure, without any thought to any direction to go

As the day went on he glanced back but was unable to remember which was the way back home, he shuddered slightly but decided he was old enough to be on his own

He lay down awhile too rest and enjoyed the warmth of the sunshine, without meaning to he fell asleep until his body shuddered again only with the cold this time

As the day had turned to night while he was asleep, the increasing darkness brought a sense of fear and loneliness

The darkness increased until he could not see his way, so he lay down and huddled himself as small as he could, trying to convince himself he was snuggled next to his mother

Several days and long lonely nights past he had lost all sense of direction, and wandered aimlessly not realizing the ground where he was walking was crumbly until it gave away under his feet

He fell with the soil onto a small ledge with no hope of getting back up onto more solid ground

With the increased sense of hopeless, he bleated, again and again, when from a distance he heard a voice he knew, the shepherd was calling to him by name

Hope sprang into the lamb’s heart and he bleated as loud as he could, and soon the strong arm of the shepherd was lifting him up to safety

Holding the lamb in his arms close to the warmth of his body, the shepherd carried the lost sheep all the way back home, where gratefully the lamb snuggled next to his parents

The Day Beyond Tomorrow

Continuation of the Last Christmas story, and the affect effects on everyone

I recommend you read that story first if you have not done so already

This addition is how life is through the eyes of someone knows only the present life, in this new world there are only two classes, servants and masters (those who stored up wealth and information on what happened so they could acquire their new status 

Based on the illuminati taking over world control

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I don’t know why I am complied to write this, or who I write this for, and I have little time to write

Furthermore I don’t know where I got the skill from as I am one of the many inferior class

We don’t even own the sparse clothing we wear the master provide and they say we were not created to have any skills other than being faithfully servent to our masters, our masters created us servant class to make their lives free from the day to day chores

My identifying tag is IT3005 I am uncertain why I tell you this as I am of little importance or real worth, as I have been frequently told by my master

We are told we were only created by the masters to become slaves for them, but they allowed to become their servants

Perhaps I write and explain things for my own sake, except I have no experience of pleasure, as our masters deemed it unnecessary

We are not allowed to talk except for answering a master question if they chose to lower themselves to talk to us, which is not often most times they just give their orders

We are expected to carry out those orders without question, silently obeying

All of the masters live in huge houses where we are only allowed to enter into when we are summoned to perform some duty and then we swiftly leave and return to the outside sheds

Where we allowed share the space of the sheds with all the other animals, if the masters decide we are too foul smelling to be allowed indoors, we have to bathe in rain water barrels

Regular worship by the masters which we know little of is held in private, we are not even allowed to know where they go, as we are unworthy creatures, we are only required to help them dress in preparation the swiftly leave afterwards

We servants have no understanding of what worship is, as it is only for the masters and therefore they deem that we don’t need to know

We are not even allowed to see our master leaving the house, we are not allowed to know who or what they worship or where they go to

Every servant has to accept our status in life with our masters, without question or complaint as these are punishable crimes

When I am allowed to sleep strange thoughts and images trouble my mind, and sometimes linger on throughout my working day, but as I am always kept busy with little time for trying to make sense of dreams or thoughts

But still these thoughts trouble me so that I find no peace or freedom from them unless I write them down as I do at this moment in secret

For if I am found out my life would surly end, as my master is a harsh man and strict in dealing with servants who get ideas or skills that they deem uneeded

 

 

Story from a poem

The darkest depths of your soul

Knew no bounds of fortitude

To fight against the evil

That consumed you.

The darkest depths of your soul https://thesarahdoughty.wordpress.com/

 

I based the following story on the above mini poem

 

Sigh! If that were only true, that I had that kind of fortitude that knew no bounds

Sadly within the darkest depths of my soul, it remains dark because of me choosing my free will over the powerful freeing light of God’s love

Although I have asked at times I have asked God to take control, and He has done so until I exercise my right of free will to allow myself to plunge into self-indulgence

As to the fight against the evil, I all too often give into temptation instead of putting on the armour of God to do battle against all that is evil

How true it is the evil of temptation consumes my very soul, sapping my strength and resolve to do the will of God

The enemy will use our own weakness and amplify them and twist every truth, so much that truth appear to be false and then doubt easily creeps in

Flooding our minds, spreading through us like poisoned wine contaminating our beliefs and faith

Although I have had answers too many prayers, with many answered so fast the response made me gasp in surprise, I am sure I grieve the Holy Spirit

All too often I cling onto hurts from the past, stubbornly refusing to let go, as if I can change what happened in any way by reliving those events

Wretched Day

This wretched day I hoped would never come, but assuredly I knew deep in my heart that this day would dawn and that my heart would be heave laden

As I stand watching walking off into the wide world, for him a brand new and exciting future

But for myself I face a bleak and lonely future even before he set off, he was already far away from the teaching of his youth

Ah! I miss those day, when he was a child full of love and willingness to listen to me, retelling stories I knew so well, but those precious days have long gone

Even that thought causes tears to flow down my face, as these last few years he became so rebellious and disrespectful

We seem to argue about everything these days, he no longer wants to hear my stories of the old days, and says they and I am too old fashion and he is bored with his life here with me

So it was this saddest of days he left to live his own life, though I had intended to give him a generous amount of money later in his life, he insisted on taking it all with him now

I gave it all to him without a second thought, even though he just shrugged and grunted a thank you

Though not what I had wished for, but it was better than expected as he had become so callous of late

Still it would have eased my mind and lessened the pain if he had turn and hugged me or said he still love me

But no such utterances past his lips, and now he was barely visible, as he continued to stride away from home, not once looking back

All too soon I could see him now more, but I continued to look half hopping he might change his mind and come back to me

The dankness of that night fell before I turned and walked back home alone, I was sobbing bitter tears and I entered indoors

The days turned into week swift enough for most others yet each day to me seem to last longer than the last, each new day would find me peering out he distance

Each day with hope in my heart of my son’s return, only to end the day returning home alone and dismayed

So I continued my lonesome vigil, even though many thought me an old fool, I would contiune

In a far off land his young son was now reduced to begging on the streets for scraps to eat. for after only a short while he had squandered all the money his father had given him, as to all those fine new friends who had clung fast to him while he had money

 They had all disappeared like the morning dew, they now openly shunned him and despised him making fine sport of is tattered appearance

As hardly anything remained of his once fine clothes, what few he worn were full of holes and as to himself had become unwashed

He had become repulsive to other people who would think nothing of pushing him back into the gutter, if bothering with him at all

His hunger was growning stronger as it had been many days since he had eaten, and he became prone to tormenting thoughts and this day they were stronger than ever

When from nowhere the sweet sound of a child singing, broke through their stronghold, as the words filtered through the son recognised the song from his own childhood days

As the pleasant music lifted his weary spirit, other thoughts of childhood flooded into his mind,

“What a foolish and ungrateful man I have become, hatefully rejecting all that my father taught me, so arrogantly thinking I knew it all and now longer need even the love my father so freely bestowed on me”

“Why did I get so callus and unloving towards my farther?”    “Surly I am a wretched and ungrateful creature, who does not even deserve to be called son, I will go now to my farther and plead that he takes me back into his house as the lowest of servants”

No sooner he had said this, he arose and headed towards that place of happy memories called home

As he walked thoughts of is childhood days flooded his mind, along with deep regret for the harsh way he had treated his father in his blind arrogant foolishness

 Many weary miles later, he knew he was almost in sight of his father’s house but the exertion coupled with hunger overcame the son and he fell to the ground

From the roof top his farther had seen the distant figure fall and knew in his heart it was his long lost son and rushed to his aid

When he reached where his son lay, he scooped him up in his arms like a new born baby and carried his son all the way back home

Rejoicing and praising along the way, “my son who was dead, is alive once more, make ready to celebrate

 

This is my own version of the prodigal son, a story I remeber from school days, only I decided to write it from the father’s point of view