Why is difficult to share Faith?

Why do I shy away from sharing the Gospel?

Yet I was fully convicted of my sins and know without a doubt I was forgiven

 I acknowledge I was freed from my sinful addiction, and God gave me a new heart

Yet I’m unable even unwilling to preach in the open about God’s Grace

The only place I have told anyone about the wonderful Grace and love of God is here on my blog.

I have wondered of late whether or not to record videos about my renewed faith and testimony to upload to YouTube

But I hesitate lest it might appear I’m promoting myself, rather than giving glory to God

To all readers, I would ask for your thoughts and advice on this subject

Also, pray that I will become willing to become the person God wants me to be and that He will enable me to do His will

Amen

Spiritual Warfare

Life as a follower of Jesus Christ has never been without a price to pay, in the past many early Christians were thrown to staving lions as a source of entertainment by the Romans

Others were stoned to death such as Steven, but all those from the past were considered martyrs and later revered as saints

Later on, in time many Christians suffered and died rather than give up their faith

This still happens in the present day in other countries Christians risk losing their lives for sharing their faith or even owning a Bible or for criticizing what the culture believes to be their holy prophet  

In these present times, it seems the enemy changed to a more subtle approach

By using spiritual attacks, which by their very nature can not be seen but are proving to be just as deadly as the divide and conquer tactics.

With the use of lies that spread quickly throughout a congregation of believers.

Causing doubt and distrust both of which are strong and effective corrosive tools.

The enemy seems to have enlisted all atheists and most of the world through the use of the internet, seducing some by appealing to their vanity

Other though their addictions even Christians are being led astray by false teachers and prosperity preachers who appeal to human envy and greed

The enemy also haunts recent converted Christians with their past sins, whereas God forgives and forgets all sins of those who have asked and truly repented

I have undergone many of those spiritual attacks since I was forgiven and surrendered my life even though my free will is no longer mine.

Whenever the enemy either temps me or reminds me of my past, I remember that Jesus willingly suffered and died for all my sins “All I am and belong to Jesus my Saviour, He forgave me and has made me a new creation, Him alone I worship”

What a Crazy World

What a Crazy World We’re Living In”

Back in the days when this song was a smash hit sung by Joe Brown, which was the theme tune of the film of the same name

Despite the words about the crazy world, compared to this modern-day. Life in the 60s was SANE

The year 2020 will go down in history or at least it should, not because it unfolded into the most amazing and stunning year full of wonderful opportunities to become great or famous or wealthy

Rather it was the year COVID-19 went worldwide along with many lockdowns restrictions including self-isolate and stay-at-home recommendations

 Then came the big advice push for everyone to get vaccinated as well as the constant updates of increasing deaths, causing widespread panic

Later on, causing unwelcomed division between those vaccinated and those unvaccinated

As if the continuation of the virus and all it entailed through the following years was enough to contend with, as a Christian I have noticed that Christianity and all those who believed were attacked from many directions.

Note: I realize this process has been a long and slow process, but attacks on the Christian faith seemed to have increased with every passing year

Atheists spread intentional lies with the use of video, causing doubts including divided opinions about faith doctrines and many churches became empty as many believers left.

The increasing pressure on Christianity from the rest of the world to embrace the LGBTIQ+ “lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, gender diverse, intersex and queer” communities

While all members of the LGBTIQ+ now enjoy a whole month of “Pride “which includes continuing freedom of speech for all their members, Christians are labelled bigots and homophobic for expressing their faith (exercising their freedom of speech)

As part of the LGBTIQ+ movement, same-sex marriages have not only been made legal but enforced churches to comply even though this goes against the Christian belief

As a former slave to sin freed and saved by Grace I make no apologies for sharing the teaching of the Bible and the Gospel of Jesus Christ, I do so out of concern and love

Some countries have banned Christians from going to their country or enforced laws preventing Christian’s freedom of speech and banning the Bible from being taken into their country

The Holy Bible

Another open discussion feel free to comment

These present days the Bible is either considered outdated or just a bunch of fairy tales

As believers, we are frequently called bigots for many reasons and we are often classed as foolish or arrogant because we affirm that Christianity is the only true faith

Whereas atheists frequently remind us that there are thousands of religions and holy books which have many devoted followers who believe their holy book and religion is the true one

So what makes Christianity any different?

First of all other faiths are works based, whereas Christianity is based on the free gift of forgiveness, that no other faith offers

Moreover, Christianity is based on a relationship with Jesus who offers to be our personal Saviour if we admit we are sinners and are truly repentant and ask for forgiveness

There are those who would kill off all the need for an intelligent designing god and say Jesus is just another myth dying and rising god.

To add more supposed proof atheists created a film discussing all the supposed dying rising gods with the aim to discredit Jesus.

Heavily relying on most people including some Christians not bothering to double-check out the so-called facts

The glaring truth of the falsehood of the entire film was that all these supposed Jesus like myth gods were portraited all the same features

From the virgin birth done to all the other features of Jesus, where in fact none of them had any of these features.

The biggest giveaway was they were all claimed to have been born on December the 25th

When all true Christians know the date of Jesus was not given in the Bible, and that date was only introduced much later in history as a way to help “Christianize” all heathens

Dear Brothers & Sister in Christ

I write to encourage you and share what has been revealed to me of late. Not that I think myself above any of you or chosen where others have not been

No, I readily confess I was a wretched sinner, not merely indeed, but in every lustful thought.

I had eagerly entangled myself with such lust, that there was no light in me at all, I hid away from His light

For even the merest glimmer of His light made me shudder with guilt so that I would scurry away deeper into my darkness, in vain hopes of finding comfort

But there was none to be found, no joy, no peace, no hope, nothing but haunting lustful images, that flickered taunting me to draw closer, with every burn they robbed me of more and more of my soul

But The Lord was patient and faithful, He knew how my addiction to lust had lured me away from Him, the Lord knew I had willingly given up my free will, and accepted lust fuelled by porn to enslave me.

I was blind, but now I see,

I now see that porn and lust are on and the same, with no power to hold us, unless we freely give it to them, in exchange for brief moments of what we perceive as ecstasy, but disappears quicker than the morning dew.

I tell you this, porn is self-cantered, promising much, but delivers emptiness. While you submit yourself the porn will dominate you

No matter how much porn you seek, no matter how much thrill you may gain.

There is No physical contact, No intimacy, No Sharing, No tender caress, No Joy, No Love

Remember these words if nothing else, when temptation tries to arose you

Also remember how much Jesus suffered, how much pain and anguish He went through, to be able to offer wretches like me and you, such a wonderful gift of forgiveness, given with such love that is beyond our understanding

My Testimony

I decided rather than continue my “Who is Graham Commander” which turned out way long enough, I would do my testimony separate

It is my hope my testimony may help other Christians, to trust in the Lord who is patient

Years before I got married, my lust addiction had already a tight firm grip over me, far stronger than I realised, as even when I wasn’t watching free porn my mind was so saturated with images from other days

I found it hard to clear my mind enough to focus on anything else, as for when I was lustfully looking at porn videos, even while one was playing, I was looking to the side at previews of other videos, enough was never enough

I had conveniently put my marriage vows to one side, so I could freely indulge in my lustful desires

This continued for far too many years until hackers sent emails threatening to expose my lustful activities, along with atheists with negative comments on Christian videos

Yes, even though I was addicted to porn, I still used to watch mostly Christian music videos, but always read through the comments

Having found so many atheist comments, I decided to explore atheist video channels, which lead me into even darker places

As they gave so what convincing reasons not to believe when believing was my only hope lifeline of freedom.

It wasn’t until I could no longer bear the heavy burden of shame and the overpowering control of the addiction.

I bent down my knees in desperate prayer, “Lord have mercy for I am a sinner in need of forgiveness and freedom from my sexual sin addiction

I surrender even my free will, as I’m unable to control myself, and just abuse my free will to indulge

Praise God, He heard and answered my prayer, He forgave me and freed me from the tangled mess I had allowed myself into

The blessed peace and joy and love that came with my new heart. “Thank you, Lord, I never want to go back into that dark place ever again”

For the first time in too many years, I began to be able to love my wife as I should and with the help of God’s Holy Spirit cleansing me daily and teaching me how to Love God first

False Freedom

I have over the years watched many videos, some with those who claim to have been a Christian and then for assorted reasons “Broken free” their words

They attract many comments from others who have chosen what I call a false freedom

So who am I that I dare to call their seemingly new freedom false?

I am someone who had thought I was a Christian, not because of my parents although they were married in a church along with marriage vows

But rather through Sunday school attendance (which I was told about later on in my life

Sometime later when attending a local school, where they read passages from the Bible every morning along with

I have over the years watched many videos, some with those who claim to have been a Christian and then for assorted reasons “Broken free” their words

They attract many comments from others who have chosen what I call a false freedom

So who am I that I dare to call their seemingly new freedom false?

I am someone who had thought I was a Christian, not because of my parents although they were married in a church along with marriage vows

But rather through Sunday school attendance (which I was told about later on in my life

Sometime later when attending a local school, where they read passages from the Bible every morning along with Christian Hymns

In those days I had no reason to doubt any of the stories which were read, even though it wasn’t until the readings began in the New Testament

That I and other pupils were introduced to Jesus, even from the beginning of His story, I was totally enthralled with His character and words

In those simpler days, I was a true child of God, never doubting

But as I aged towards the teenager age, fleshly desires grew stronger and began to weaken my belief

Further on as the desires gained stronger hold, the enemy used others to spread his lies

One being that Jesus was gay since He only mixed with men including His disciples

This thought sidetracked me so well that I began to think I must also be gay too, adding yet another dark and perverted path for me to wander onto

This was well before the current “gender confusion” and the idea that you can choose and alter your own gender, whatever gender you may have been born

What I and others didn’t stop to think about, is the fact every child is the product of two parents, one male, and the other female, so it’s little wonder that we might feel a stronger attraction towards the opposite to which we were born

I like many others I invited excuses (Lies in disguise) “I’m only human, I need some pleasure in my life” “I’m not hurting anybody” “It’s my body, and nobody else’s business what I do” and many more other excuses

 

A Closer Walk With Thee

“Just a Closer Walk With Thee” is the title of a well known spiritual song going back many years in the pop music industry and a song that has been sung by many singing artists

As Christians, we are called to grow more like Christ as we are followers of Christ

Meanwhile, the rest of the world is speeds off in all sorts of directions, (away from God) the directions include creating humanized robots, such as the much published Artificial Intelligence Robot Sophia (“godhead” simulation

While scientists have been desperately trying to get the aging process to be recognized as a disease and who are striving for eternal life by working to find a cure or at least slow the aging process down

At some point soon the will attempt to redesign our DNA, (if they haven’t already started tampering

As with other forms of genetic tampering, the likelihood of mutants is surely a strong possibility

The X-Men film characters come to my mind as they were all mutants, although a fictional film perhaps it’s a foretaste of humans future if DNA tampering continues

Saul who later became Paul came to believe that Christ rising from the dead was the greatest of all miracles, which also promised us Life eternal

Meanwhile, the supposed Mother church is so reinventing it’s teaching, it very well may soon become unrecognizable, it has already agreed with the world Adam & Eve story is fictional

While busily encouraging and embracing other religions in an attempt to bring in a one world acceptable belief

The mother church has now accepted evolution as fact, but under Gods direction all of these things make me wonder if the mother church has become aware of their power of authority slipping away from them, so they are now struggling to regain control by appealing to the masses

So what of present-day Christians? Are we to become so tarnished by the world that Christ is not seen through our very being?

Stand up and be Counted

Christians it is way over due to stand up and be counted, by professing Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior.

As for myself I know for too many years I refrained from even telling anyone I was a Christian, let alone spreading the good news.

I’m sorry to say I gave up reading the Bible, not because I didn’t believe anymore, but rather because other things crowded in on my spare time – life happens.

So little by little my Christian life drifted on aimlessly and I allowed myself to become far too self-indulgent to even care.

Until the day my mind was so tormentedly full of images from my constant addiction, I couldn’t bear the dominating power it had over me.

I cried out in silent prayer about my anguish and tormented mind and asked Jesus to forgive my sins and surrendered everything including my free will.

As I was unable to control my thought or self-indulgent nature.

Praise The Lord! He answered both parts of my prayers, He forgave me and took away my addiction by giving me a new heart.

If you have yet to be “Born Again” the experience is beyond mere words to express

But since that wonderful day of my new birth, my life is more full and joyful than ever before

Evolution vs creation the ongoing debate

Actually debate is the wrong word, as with a proper debate both sides enter into it and discuss their side of the argument

However this is not the case, as tis discussion for want of a better suited word, is one sided

Let me explain, Christians upload praise videos with assorted Hymns and other praise songs as a way of uplifting those Christians who either need encouraging or just enjoy joining in the praise by singing along or adding thanks’ for those who uploading the collection

Then along comes the atheists with their snide uncalled for comments, which results in counter remarks from Christians, and so this lope sided discussion begins

I have listened to many arguments and read many comments given by the atheists who will argue against Christianity and creation

So I thought I would look at this argument from an objective point of view, and not as a Christian, although I am and have been nearly 67 years

Therefore will not be including passages from the Bible, but rather explaining the atheist point of view and way this logic if taken to extremes could do a U-turn turn on the very same argument

The general argument goes something like this, the Bible is made of for fairy stories written by superstitious nomadic tribes, and more over the Bible has been proved to be wrong on many occasions

But considering the time in history the “Old Testament“ (The Tora ) was written, it’s fairly comprehensive for “superstitious” people, moreover why would any people wish to have themselves portrayed in such a unflattering way as contained with the so called “fairy stories”

The atheists says that all the contents of the Bible just stories and never really happened, moreover the main characters within these stories never even existed

The atheists a that Moses was not a real person, and neither was Jesus and there for believing in Jesus is foolishness and therefore Christians are stupid

Atheists often quote evolution has been the force behind all life on earth, along with the big bang theory to explain how the universe itself was made

At a basic level what they are saying is that, there is no design –as “evolution all living life just happen” so every living creature on the planet came to be as a random series of chaotic flunks or mere chance

As they would argue there was no any intelligence or creator behind the whole process

To them this point of view is logical, but I wonder how moany have this logic to the ultimate conclusion

Which is if there was never any intelligence or creator involved, and everything was brought about by pure chance, then all of human achievements – inventions and complex devices were also brought about by pure chance

Even our creativeness and intelligence would count for nothing, for if they follow their own logic, everything humans have even done, would have come into life without our efforts or even thoughts

As to the big bang theory and it being proved by the Hubble telescope that our universe and even time itself had a beginning when the big bang happened

The big bang itself was caused they say, by a massive compact collection of matter in the form of a fireball, which seems to be hanging around within a void (emptiness – before there was space)

But nobody that supports this odd idea has any suggestion where this fireball came from or how it hung in empty space (as there was no space for it to be in) and where it came from

In fact many of those who support the big bang as the answer to the beginning of life, will not even discuss what might have been before the bang happen, or why it should explode and how was it controlled so exact

As atheists and scientist would say nothing can come from nothing

Richard Dawkins a well know atheist, stated “evolution was not random chance or chaotic” but rather an slow process of natural selection (Darwin’s theory)