I write about my experience, as a Warning to others

Backslider

This is phrase you don’t hear about these days, not surprising when you consider the depths of depravity this world indulges in

I should know as I was more depraved than I would like to admit, even though I had recently surrendered all to Jesus, and was experiencing freedom far beyond description

This was after too many years of attempting to kick the habit which had by then turned into an addiction

Perhaps due to vanity or just weakness, I allowed myself to take control of my free will when I say “control” I ought to say Lack of control

I backslide and soon was overtaken by the addiction once again, it seems I had forgotten just how quickly you can get entangled and just how overpowering the effects on my mind were

My mind was quickly filled with demanding thoughts, leaving no room for any other thoughts, to the extent that I forgot everyday things I need to do

What little pleasure I gained was short lived and not satisfying at all, yet the urge to continue indulging became even stronger, snuffing out all of my creative thoughts

Leaving me unable to even start another story, until I confessed backsliding back into my porn addiction and knew that this needed to be my next story

Porn is the modern day updated version of Lust, porn poisons the mind filling it so completely, it leave no room and offers no release and certainly no freedom

Even if many may say they are exercising their free will, so they have found freedom, they as I was, they are being deceived or lying to ourselves

Know this fellow Christians any addiction is really slavery binding us with stronger chains than can be imagined, I would rather be a servant to my savior

Than continue as a slave of addition and therefore sin!