Anger

Anger the Contagious Fire

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I write this post not to boast, but to expose my weakness and to hopefully help others who may also struggle with the flame of Anger

I have noticed lately that although the amount of patience has increased due to the number of problems that require patience

Someone else’s frustration has led to anger, leapt across even the smallest spark that ignited to become anger the contagious fire, without realising how quickly and easily it spreads

At one time my own vanity sparked anger, in my arrogates I thought my gift would please who I had bought it for, but when it was rejected

My anger was swiftly ignited and I reacted with uncalled-for insults, and justly reprimanded

Which led me to humbly apologise for my outburst of self-righteous behaviour

Since then, several times I have struggled not to allow someone else anger to ignite the consuming fire of anger, instead allow love and patience to snuff out any spark

Patience

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“Patience is a virtue not many folks possess” is the only line of a poem my wife wrote

Which came into my mind recently when my wife while more asleep than awake

Pushed against me with force while lying beside me in bed, not seeming to know it was me her husband whom she thrust at

Within a split second my own anger sparked within me to retaliate; any notion of patience faded

If I the husband of nearly 40 years felt such anger towards such child-like women as my wife

Was incapable of containing unwarranted anger toward my own wife

Then I do not deserve to be loved or forgiven, because at that moment in time I was neither patient or forging

The Lord God thankfully stayed my hand from harming my beloved wife, in the way my anger would have directed me to do

Afterthought: Patience needs to be practised daily along with prayer so it may grow and replace all that is not of God

Anger – Frustration and the Power of Stillness

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Anger had been welling up inside of me all day, or that’s the way it seemed at the time.I knelt on the floor intending to complain or even argue with God, I could feel my anger and frustration welling up demanding to be set free

Although if someone was to ask me now why I was so angery, I could not say or remember.

All I recolect is I felt I might explode and could continue no longer, so I knelt on the floor intending to complain or even argue with God, I could feel my anger and frustration welling up demanding to be set free

My body shivered not just with the cold of the night air, but also the powerful force of my anger, as I opened my mouth to speak I hear the words “Be still”

I found unable to speak as a quietness spread over me like a velvet blanket, enveloping me in such an indescribable peace, my hand tenderly held as I journeyed into the very presence of God

My anger and frustration began to float out of me, rising as steaming water, no longer bothering my mind or soul – no longer mine to cling onto

Quietly at first sweet music played from a distance, gradually it came closer or perhaps it was I that moved, whichever it was soon it enveloped me so complete my body – my soul rose up with the increasing crescendos

Entering into such beauty – such wholeness surrounded I lost self-awareness so completely

I became just a tiny speck of this immense oneness, this experience was beyond feelings or anything I could have ever imagined

As there was no sense of time, I could not how long I remained there, but I hope the memory will linger on and remain with me for the rest of my life

Slowly after what seem forever, my spirit descended back into my body which shivered once more, for it had missed my spirit and jolted at its arrival

This empty shell my body which the Holy Spirit of God had given as one of many gifts, for now I appreciated all of those gifts as I had never before

I was now so full of unexplainable joy I could not help myself and burst into praise songs, with such force my body shook once again, and trembled with the awesome power that still linger within me

All that frustration and anger that had so tortured my mind and body were but a faded and distant memory, replaced by this sweet gentle and wonderful peaceful love.

Even though my body and mind now told me to rise, I didn’t want to leave even though I was now aching, reluctantly I whispered Amen.

I arose stiffly from my kneeling and stretched and once more raised my voice in praise, turning away left my room to return to what would never quite be normal life again