Patience

“Patience is a virtue not many folks possess” is the only line of a poem my wife wrote

Which came into my mind recently when my wife while more asleep than awake

Pushed against me with force while lying beside me in bed, not seeming to know it was me her husband whom she thrust at

Within a split second my own anger sparked within me to retaliate; any notion of patience faded

If I the husband of nearly 40 years felt such anger towards such child-like women as my wife

Was incapable of containing unwarranted anger toward my own wife

Then I do not deserve to be loved or forgiven, because at that moment in time I was neither patient or forging

The Lord God thankfully stayed my hand from harming my beloved wife, in the way my anger would have directed me to do

Afterthought: Patience needs to be practised daily along with prayer so it may grow and replace all that is not of God

The Holy Bible

Another open discussion feel free to comment

These present days the Bible is either considered outdated or just a bunch of fairy tales

As believers, we are frequently called bigots for many reasons and we are often classed as foolish or arrogant because we affirm that Christianity is the only true faith

Whereas atheists frequently remind us that there are thousands of religions and holy books which have many devoted followers who believe their holy book and religion is the true one

So what makes Christianity any different?

First of all other faiths are works based, whereas Christianity is based on the free gift of forgiveness, that no other faith offers

Moreover, Christianity is based on a relationship with Jesus who offers to be our personal Saviour if we admit we are sinners and are truly repentant and ask for forgiveness

There are those who would kill off all the need for an intelligent designing god and say Jesus is just another myth dying and rising god.

To add more supposed proof atheists created a film discussing all the supposed dying rising gods with the aim to discredit Jesus.

Heavily relying on most people including some Christians not bothering to double-check out the so-called facts

The glaring truth of the falsehood of the entire film was that all these supposed Jesus like myth gods were portraited all the same features

From the virgin birth done to all the other features of Jesus, where in fact none of them had any of these features.

The biggest giveaway was they were all claimed to have been born on December the 25th

When all true Christians know the date of Jesus was not given in the Bible, and that date was only introduced much later in history as a way to help “Christianize” all heathens

Sneaky Distractions

Why are distractions sneaky?

Because they always seem ready to fill and stop you from doing what you need to do

Although even day to day chores can be used to distract you by the enemy

Who takes delight in providing you with anything he can to stop you from praying or reading your bible

The enemy wants to keep you so busy that you forget to worship God first and study His word

These attacks happen more often when you are a newly born again Christian, but even those who have allowed the Holy Spirit to strengthen and grow the new you

If the enemy fails to distract you enough he will remind you of sins you committed before you repented, in an effort to make you feel guilty which may make you long for those sins

But stay strong and resist all temptation, admit to whatever sins come to your mind ask God for forgiveness and to continue to teach you and guide you in His ways

Innocent and Porn

Recently I watched a documentary about the damaging effect of pornography on the younger generation

It was reported children as you as 12 -13 are becoming addicted to porn of a much stronger nature than would only be allowed for a mature audience

I presume that these underage viewers must be using their parent’s details to gain access

As the documentary did not specify how access was gained, it was more conserved about this increase in the amount underaged viewers

Also that there were few if any adults to advise them and support them in breaking their porn habit

Which I found sad especially when schools are allowing sex education to be taught by transexuals

Sometimes gender gender-chosen stories are read to children as young as 4 -to 5 years

As a former local school governor, I did think of offering to counteract this disturbing trend by sharing my own struggle with porn addiction.

Also by offering counselling to those already addicted to porn, even though I am not a qualified counsellor

But I’m unsure how to put into action my desire to help and advise?

Please comment to let me know what you think

Stuart L. Tutt's avatarSomething to Stu Over

I shared this a few years back. But with the heavy onslaught of pornographic material in our world today I feel the need to share this poem again…


Secret fantasies, forbidden fruit
Dangerous seeds are taking root

Pleasant to the eyes, poison to the soul
Weeds and thorns are beginning to grow

“Victimless” lust, “harmless” sin
Persuasive words for many men

Selfish personal gratification
Spiritual, marital desecration

In the midst of the garden a tree of life
Nearby a lovely flower called a wife

But the flower struggles among the weeds
Of a man who does not account for his deeds

Thorns prick and pierce flower’s tenderness
What a man does is his own business

Captivated by pretend ignoring the real
Not understanding what the flower may feel

Placing blame but avoiding responsibility
Man continues to lose his credibility

Sin separates as it always does
Unable to revive what once…

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Die to Self

Here I’m not talking about suicide, but admitting you are a sinner and asking for forgiveness

Repentance (turn entirely away from sin) is needed and confession of all your sins

“Unless you are born again you can never enter heaven” which means you need to die to yourself (the old self – the sinning self – the self-centred self)

The reason it can be hard to do this as we take for granted our God-given free will

Frequently misusing it by self-indulging in bad habits or at least things that offer small short pleasure.

Bad habits vs Good habits

Bad habits seem harmless and they are really easy to get into but hard to break because the more you indulge the more you desire to indulge

Before you realise you are addicted and even though you may try to stop, you can’t rely on using your own willpower, as you have already given up your free will and all willpower when you first indulged

Whereas

Good habits take time and consistent effort, and persistence

Leaving little room for the “Self-centered” and the old bad habits lest they snare you back as a slave to the sin you had before

Once you have repented and given your whole life to Christ, you will begin to hate what you once desired. You will be tempted, but you will be able to resist through His strength. “For I can do all things through He who strengthens me

Open Discussion on Religion

This post is a response to Atheist Vel of clubschadenfreude.wordpress.com who commented on one of my other posts and wrote there was no evidence of my willingness to discuss religion.

Hence this post and having is as an open discussion

Religion is a worldwide feature of the whole human race, allow me to turn your attention to the flat earth concept

People all over the world within their understanding viewed the world as a flat surface held up by different objects depending on where they lived

Some believed four giant turtles held up the world, other people believed four elephants supported the world

This flat earth belief seems to have been accepted in the whole earth

Even the intelligent Greek’s of the past believe in the flat earth

Until much later it was replaced by Plato wrote about a spherical Earth, and Aristotle provided strong empirical evidence for the spherical Earth which become the accepted shape worldwide

Suggesting that all humans of the past were somehow mind linked and perhaps they continued to be connected by the desire to create

Not only physical things but also supernatural beings, throughout the world of many religions all with their own version of god or many gods

All the people of the world have strived to know if there is a real God

Maybe this is why there are many Holy books all claiming to be divine and true, this includes the Bible

While the Old Testament were mostly Jewish in origin, New Testament was added to make the complete Bible

The New Testament tells the story of the life of Jesus and the early days of Christianity

Yeshua is the Hebrew name for Jesus. It means “Yahweh [the Lord] is Salvation.”

Unlike other faiths which require “works,” Christianity offers salvation as a gift

The Taboo Subject of Masturbation

Written as my personal warning to all Christian believers, as you can’t serve two masters

While my chosen subject to write about might seem strange to include the many Christian based posts, while masturbation is considered to be normal and as a way a healthy way to learn about your body

Although masturbation is not directly mentioned a sin in the Bible, it can become addictive and lead a person into sexual sins.

As it did with me, in my young and innocent school days still unaware of the pleasure or the addictiveness. Another boy who sat next to me.

Exposed and fondled my penis, whether it was pleasurable or not I’m unable to remember, although I used this unexpected experience as an excuse to indulge myself for far too many years.

When around 13 I became aware of sexual stimulation brought on by looking at black & white photographic images of scantily clothed ladies

Within a newspaper my father bought, and I began secretly collecting the pages with those images, later on adding other exposing images.

These were page 3 of the Sun newspaper, the ladies wore far less clothing, as my collection grew so did my lustful nature and an increase of masturbation.

Later on in life I was able to buy what was classed as soft porn magazines, then hard porn videos

All of this was way before the internet along with the birth of online porn, which lead to a far deeper lustful addiction

Only after far too many years I understood the need to die to myself, another subject I will write about next time

But for now I have included a praise worship video from India, to remind us all the need to pray and praise

So much for Richard Dawkins suggesting, that if you we born in a different country you would believe in a different god, and not the god of the Bible

Image courtesy of Lift up Your Eyes

In the Last days

For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers

Atheists might be considered as an enemy of Christians, as they certainly never seem to run short of criticism

They say Christians believe in an invisible God, and since there is no evidence to support a creator god, they discredit the Bible as a bunch of fairy stories

They also say there are thousands of gods that man created to explain things men in the past were unable to explain

Other people will say that all religions are the same, while yet others claim the universe is the source of power to grant us everything we desire – want or need (The Secret)

Richard Dawkins who has used many excessively long and none flattering words to describe the nature of the god of the old testament often expresses his hope that Christianity as a religion will dissolve into the mists of time as many other religions have done

Other atheists have sought to attack Christianity, by discrediting Jesus.

Who was the only reason for Christianity, some say He is just another mythical god, others say He was not a real person.

These are just a few of the augments atheists and other disbelievers have used against Christianity, I have only come across a few other religious videos that atheist comment on, I wonder why?

Perhaps by denying Jesus, they can deny they are sinners too, so hide in the darkness of self-importance

Yet God is able to make use of them for His purpose, to rekindle lukewarm Christians. Even if atheists knew they have been used in any way they would deny any proof

But the day is coming when every knee will bow, every tongue confess

Dear Brothers & Sister in Christ

I write to encourage you and share what has been revealed to me of late. Not that I think myself above any of you or chosen where others have not been

No, I readily confess I was a wretched sinner, not merely indeed, but in every lustful thought.

I had eagerly entangled myself with such lust, that there was no light in me at all, I hid away from His light

For even the merest glimmer of His light made me shudder with guilt so that I would scurry away deeper into my darkness, in vain hopes of finding comfort

But there was none to be found, no joy, no peace, no hope, nothing but haunting lustful images, that flickered taunting me to draw closer, with every burn they robbed me of more and more of my soul

But The Lord was patient and faithful, He knew how my addiction to lust had lured me away from Him, the Lord knew I had willingly given up my free will, and accepted lust fuelled by porn to enslave me.

I was blind, but now I see,

I now see that porn and lust are on and the same, with no power to hold us, unless we freely give it to them, in exchange for brief moments of what we perceive as ecstasy, but disappears quicker than the morning dew.

I tell you this, porn is self-cantered, promising much, but delivers emptiness. While you submit yourself the porn will dominate you

No matter how much porn you seek, no matter how much thrill you may gain.

There is No physical contact, No intimacy, No Sharing, No tender caress, No Joy, No Love

Remember these words if nothing else, when temptation tries to arose you

Also remember how much Jesus suffered, how much pain and anguish He went through, to be able to offer wretches like me and you, such a wonderful gift of forgiveness, given with such love that is beyond our understanding

My Testimony

I decided rather than continue my “Who is Graham Commander” which turned out way long enough, I would do my testimony separate

It is my hope my testimony may help other Christians, to trust in the Lord who is patient

Years before I got married, my lust addiction had already a tight firm grip over me, far stronger than I realised, as even when I wasn’t watching free porn my mind was so saturated with images from other days

I found it hard to clear my mind enough to focus on anything else, as for when I was lustfully looking at porn videos, even while one was playing, I was looking to the side at previews of other videos, enough was never enough

I had conveniently put my marriage vows to one side, so I could freely indulge in my lustful desires

This continued for far too many years until hackers sent emails threatening to expose my lustful activities, along with atheists with negative comments on Christian videos

Yes, even though I was addicted to porn, I still used to watch mostly Christian music videos, but always read through the comments

Having found so many atheist comments, I decided to explore atheist video channels, which lead me into even darker places

As they gave so what convincing reasons not to believe when believing was my only hope lifeline of freedom.

It wasn’t until I could no longer bear the heavy burden of shame and the overpowering control of the addiction.

I bent down my knees in desperate prayer, “Lord have mercy for I am a sinner in need of forgiveness and freedom from my sexual sin addiction

I surrender even my free will, as I’m unable to control myself, and just abuse my free will to indulge

Praise God, He heard and answered my prayer, He forgave me and freed me from the tangled mess I had allowed myself into

The blessed peace and joy and love that came with my new heart. “Thank you, Lord, I never want to go back into that dark place ever again”

For the first time in too many years, I began to be able to love my wife as I should and with the help of God’s Holy Spirit cleansing me daily and teaching me how to Love God first