While this sounds like a contradiction, especially when we read that so loved the world, He gave His only Son

Since we are all sinners and there is no good in anyone, we all deserve the punishment of hell

But Jesus died for our sins, He freely gave up His own will to do the Father’s will

So that if we admit we are sinners and believe Jesus as our Saviour, we can have eternal life

This is offered as a Free Gift, and can’t be influenced by good work

As a sinner forgiven of my sins and freed from my addiction, I still remember the overflowing joy

I wanted to tell everyone, but of course, the enemy tried to snare me back with lies and reminders of my past, every time he turned up, I reminded him that I was no longer that person from the past

I was a new creation who belonged to God and grateful to Jesus for answering my prayer

As to hate and God, He does not hate in the same we do, for He is LOVE

If He did not, he would not have given up His Son, God provided a way to be saved from our weaknesses and indulgences

 All we have to do is accept His Free Gift, to ask and believe

The enemy soon began dropping the cares of the world onto me, through YouTube videos  

As a new born-again Christian, I was not prepared for the heavyweight these videos bought with them, while at the same time replacing my past addiction to watching videos

One after another I began to feel anger and human hatred, and yet unable till now to be able to stop being drawn in a judgmental state of mind

Jesus although spent His time amongst sinners, he didn’t judge or rebuke them

He either forgave them of keeled them, even though He know all the people would turn against Him and crucify Him

Thus, displaying a far deeper Love than we can even imagine